Jordan Stephens has admitted he became sober after ‘destroying’ relationships in his life before someone ‘held a boundary’.
The Rizzle Kicks star, 32, discussed his experiences with drugs and alcohol during a candid interview on On The Mend With Matt Willis.
Jordan began dating Jade Thirlwall in 2020 during the first coronavirus lockdown after she slipped into his Instagram direct messages.
Discussing how substances affected his relationships, he said: ‘Every time I go out and destroy myself with drugs, I destroy the relationships I’m in and that’s not really working for me so I’m going to have to go sober and I did.
‘This was the final point. This heartbreak I experienced where someone held a boundary rightfully and forced me into reconsidering my b******t.
Jordan Stephens has admitted he became sober after ‘destroying’ relationships in his life before someone ‘held a boundary’
Jordan began dating Jade Thirlwall in 2020 during the first coronavirus lockdown after she slipped into his Instagram direct messages
‘One of the things I did, which I talk about at the end of this book, is I literally went to a f*****g course on relationships to teach myself how to be a good partner. Wow. Because I was like, I’m clearly f*****g this up.’
Jordan also told how he had been overdosing on the drug Modafinil which he took for his ADHD.
The performer ordere dit off in the internet and it was only after he went to a psychiatrist that he realised his dose was far too high.
Jordan said: ‘He went, okay, how strong are the pills? And I went 200mg each. And I remember he just went quiet. And he was like 400mg a day? And I went sometimes.
‘And he went, okay, we’re going to get you on this thing. And then he writes the prescription. And I remember so vividly he gave me the prescription and I looked at and it said 16mg, and I was like 16mg?
‘And then I remember reading the pamphlet and it said like, here’s how you know you’ve had an overdose. And it was like dry tongue, profuse sweating.
‘And it was just like all the things that I thought meant the mode of modafinil was kicking in, was working. So by those metrics, I’d basically been overdosing on every day for like 18 months.
Jordan added he also took Modafinil, which is used in the treatment of conditions that cause excessive daytime sleepiness, to help him stop using cocaine.
Jordan said: ‘Every time I go out and destroy myself with drugs, I destroy the relationships I’m in and that’s not really working for me so I’m going to have to go sober and I did’
He added: ‘This was the final point. This heartbreak I experienced where someone held a boundary rightfully and forced me into reconsidering my b******t’
He said: ‘Modafinil was to take me off coke because my cocaine use became a problem when I started doing it at home.
‘You know, initially it was a coping mechanism for dealing with how intense the places I was being asked to go to were. Again, as you would know it was surreal.’
It comes after Jordan gave rare insight into his relationship with Jade during an appearance at the Kite Festival.
He said: ‘I have to give a shout out to my current girlfriend. The relationship I’m in now I feel secure and safe. I feel love and I feel connected to a person.
‘I didn’t have an understanding that I could feel love like this.’
Before Jade, Jordan was in a relationship with actress Amber Anderson. They split in 2019.
Jordan added that he has become more open with his feelings as he’s got older.
Speaking about his relatonship with Jade, Jordan said: I feel love and I feel connected to a person’ (pictured together in 2021)
He said: ‘I would never recommend somebody keep their heart closed for a long time because it’s isolating and I think that’s where the more damaging behaviours will come from.
‘People who have been so traumatised or experienced such a significant heartbreak at such a young age ,that their heart is closed – you can’t connect to people like that, so you are able to act in unempathetic ways.
‘The flipside is there are people who keep their heart too open, I really believe that too, that they allow everything in and they are unable to cope because it’s our responsibility to hold boundaries.
‘I know the feeling of when my heart is around certain people and when I’m not. Boundaries have been a big lesson for me. Knowing when I just have to shut the door slightly.
